25/04/20

When I woke up, I texted my ex to ask how he was. I’d wanted to do it the night before, but thought I’d give him a bit of space after our conversation, which had been pretty intense.

I felt most of the day feeling pretty anxious. I think the day before really wiped me out.

My Dad thanked me really sincerely for writing such nice things about him in my blog the day before. It was nice to bring a smile to his face.

In the afternoon, I got chucked out of a WhatsApp group that one of our regulars has with the staff at the bar, which felt a bit like a slap in the face. Not quite sure why he chose to remove me. I don’t even know if he knows I’ve been unwell because he’s not on social media or anything, so it was all a bit odd.

My mum and I went for a really nice and quite long walk in the woods after lunch.

In the evening, a load of my friends got involved in a Zoom video call that was initiated by my ex. I didn’t feel up for joining, because it had a load of his friends from back home in it, and I’ve never met them before. I felt a bit like I was missing out, but at the same time I totally wasn’t up for talking to anyone. Bit of a weird one.

I didn’t like how anxious I was feeling, so I deliberately went to sleep super early.

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